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[10 Aug 2004|01:32pm] |
I thought I better inform you kids that I got a new LJ a while back and it's in working order and I am now accepting requests to be your friend in my new el jay :)
Add me there, delete me here, whatever.
athambia is where you will find me.
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[22 Jul 2004|07:38am] |
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you can tell
from the scars on my arms
and cracks in my hips
and the dents in my car
and the blisters on my lips
that i'm not the carefullest of girls
you can tell
from the glass on the floor
and the strings that're breaking
and i keep on breaking more
and it looks like i am shaking
but it's just the temperature
and then again
if it were any colder i could disengage
if i were any older i could act my age
but i dont think that youd believe me
it's
not
the
way
i'm
meant
to
be
it's just the way the operation made me
and you can tell
from the state of my room
that they let me out too soon
and the pills that i ate
came a couple years too late
and ive got some issues to work through
there i go again
pretending to be you
make-believing
that i have a soul beneath the surface
trying to convince you
it was accidentally on purpose
i am not so serious
this passion is a plagiarism
i might join your century
but only on a rare occasion
i was taken out
before the labor pains set in and now
behold the world's worst accident
i am the girl anachronism
and you can tell
by the red in my eyes
and the bruises on my thighs
and the knots in my hair
and the bathtub full of flies
that i'm not right now at all
there i go again
pretending that i'll fall
don't call the doctors
cause they've seen it all before
they'll say just
let
her
crash
and
burn
she'll learn
the attention just encourages her
and you can tell
from the full-body cast
that i'm sorry that i asked
though you did everything you could
(like any decent person would)
but i might be catching so don't touch
you'll start believeing youre immune to gravity and stuff
don't get me wet
because the bandages will all come off
and you can tell
from the smoke at the stake
that the current state is critical
well it is the little things, for instance:
in the time it takes to break it she can make up ten excuses:
please excuse her for the day, its just the way the medication makes her...
i dont necessarily believe there is a cure for this
so i might join your century but only as a doubtful guest
i was too precarious removed as a caesarian
behold the worlds worst accident
I AM THE GIRL ANACHRONISM
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[10 Jul 2004|08:04pm] |
"Hi.
First of all, you are fat. You are ugly. Your breath stinks. You are unpopular. Your car sucks. Your house sucks. Your life sucks.
You are not witty. You are not smart. You are ignorant. You are stupid. You will never make it in this world. You are unpopular. You will never amount to anything. You are nothing.
Your diet is poor. You have low self-esteem. You have cellulite. You have ugly toenails. You have blackheads. You have body hair where it just shouldn’t be. Your eyeballs are not white enough. Your teeth are not white enough.
Secondly, you are fat. You should go on a diet. You should eat more hamburgers. Your tits are not big enough. Your tits are too small. Your tits aren’t small enough or big enough. Your dick is too small. Your nose isn’t right. Your ass is too big. You should make yourself sick. You should eat more hamburgers.
Your dress sense sucks. You have no style. You are one of the crowd. You are a follower. You are a freak. You don’t fit in. You are a lah-hoo-ser. You have no charisma. You are not sexy enough. Your favorite band sucks. Your favorite brand sucks. Your clothes suck. Your shoes suck. You are retarded.
You don’t have enough money. You should work harder. You don’t have enough things. You are unhappy. You need more. You are unsatisfied. You are not moving forward. You are not keeping up the pace. You are lagging behind. You are one step behind the rest.
You are doing it all wrong. You need to change. You need to see that change is good. You need to follow us. You need to be individual. You need to fit in. You need to think outside the square. You need to stand out. You need to know the rules. You need to know the secrets. You should be yourself.
Thirdly, you are fat. Your legs wobble too much. Your teeth are crooked. Your face is wrong. You are not thin enough. You are too thin. You need to eat more hamburgers.
You are lactose intolerant. You are iron deficient. Your cholesterol is too high. Your calcium level is too low. Your blood pressure is too high. Your iron level is too low. You need to get liposuction. You need to lose weight. You suffer from premature ejaculation. You are far too dependant on drugs. You need to buy more drugs.
You are bipolar. You have attention deficit hyperactive disorder. You have post-traumatic stress disorder. You suffer from depression. You are manic. You are not happy enough. You suffer from road rage. You suffer split-personality disorders. You suffer marriage problems. You are not right. You need to buy more drugs.
You should stop smoking. You should buy more cigarettes. You should stop smoking. You will get cancer. You will die anyway. You should have fun. You shouldn’t have fun. You should be fashionable. You should keep ahead. You are lagging behind. You should be individual. You shouldn’t care about what you do. You are free. You should go your own way. You should follow us.
You watch too much television. You need to stay tuned. You are fat because you watch too much television. You should watch more television. You should be individual. You are going to be a star one day. You are nothing. You should eat more hamburgers. You should drink more syrup. You are too fat.
You should not be who you are. You have to change.
My name is Marketing. Now buy my fucking product."
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[08 Jul 2004|06:23pm] |
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Skinny Puppy: Worlock |
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So you're there.
Waiting.
Waiting.
...and waiting.
So there you are standing by the sea, that perfect shot is comming up on that beach you may never venture to ever again, it's a shit day you have to admit. But, there is a break in the clouds...yes yes! Blue sky, camera on, camera in place...CLICK.
Why must fuckheads ruin the possibility of a good...no no, correction...great shot.
Oh how Jana made the trip gold. GOLD I tell you.
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[08 Jul 2004|11:32am] |
I just asked Billy what he got for Art.
It's this burning desire for me to do better than anyone else in this subject. It's this fucked up comp that I'm dying to win.
I want to be the best artist in our year, I want the fucking art award.
I want it more than I have ever wanted anything from school work [forgetting how much i wanted the drama award].
Fuck now I am antsy...
I want to do some art NOW!
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[08 Jul 2004|11:03am] |
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From Autumn To Ashes: Short Stories With Tradgic Endings |
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I just read somthing that made me think.
Someone I know wrote in a profile, how they hate it when Straight Edge kids run around yelling I'm sXe look at my X's look how tuff I am. (In not so many words) I do not do this, nor am I offended, this doesnt really bother me at all. I don't do it and yes it does shit me when kids do this when they don't know what the fuck they are on about.
Like they said, yes these kids may be only 13 and don't understand the concept of sXe. The point I am making here is...
I don't like it when you run around saying how much of a stoner you are. I don't give a fuck what you choose to do in your spare time. Hey, dude, it's illegal.
But lyke it'z tha kewliessss that I can lyke smoke weed.
FUCKING GET OVER IT.
If your doing it to look cool, you're failing. You look like a fuck head.
[This is not made to offened you kids who are close to me who do it. You kids don't run around like fucks with stash bags]
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| I'm cold as cold can be. |
[08 Jul 2004|09:19am] |
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Atreyu: Bleeding Mascara |
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I am loving new Atreyu.
They are definatly in my top fave bands.
New material from good bands = a tear to my eye.
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Ok so kids on here might not know but I went away to Perth for about 2.5 weeks.
Perth was good, I guess it's a really beautiful and clean fresh city, but I felt so weirded out all the time. People were so harsh and didnt hold back on staring. Staring because...HOLY SHIT they havent got scene/goth/hardcore/punk/ska/anything alternitive what so ever, ok so Chris told me yes yes they do...they just don't venture out during the day. Perhaps this means in Brisbane we are just show off's :D So blah blah I was a stinky tourist. I got some new nurse dresses and shit from op shops and ummm I don't think there was too much else hey.
I am going to see the lady who is making my corset monday...to pick it up...fucking yes!
This arvo I am going for my first Manual driving lesson, I am really nervous. I hate being in cars, and now I have to drive them oh and guess what! My parents want to get me a ute FUCKING YES, now I can have NO friends! and I like, can totally take no more than two people out at once, unless it's a duell cab. I mean fuck, arent utes just so fucking sexy?
Maybe I am just a snob?
I keep missing IKTPQ, damn me being out of state. And not being in the same state of as them...
Fuck that.
Have a good day kids.
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| Will, will, will. |
[08 Jun 2004|03:58pm] |
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| likepoison's LJ stalker is fallen_on_days! | | fallen_on_days is stalking you because your LiveJournal is just SO damned interesting. They are also leaving anonymous abuse on your journal! |
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| YAY |
[23 May 2004|06:14pm] |
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Spice Girls: Wannabe |
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I just finished my maths assignment.
:D
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| Thinking of you. |
[19 May 2004|06:29pm] |
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Vanilla Ice: Ice Ice Baby |
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When I think of you.
All the clouds disappear and I get a beaming ray of sunshine over my little face and it makes me feel like everything will turn out ok.
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| Districts. |
[18 May 2004|07:10pm] |
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Regurgitator: ! |
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Tomorrow is districts.
District cross country.
Tamara, being a stupid head, tried on x-country day, therefor making the team. Tamara does NOT want to run tomorrow.
Tamara might have to.
Tamara will get by.
Tamara always does.
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| I give my heart away... |
[04 May 2004|05:42pm] |
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As I Lay Dying: Forever |
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Firsts
First best friend: Brie
First car: Yet to come.
First real kiss:real kiss? Shane Grimes
First break-up: Maybe year 7?
First screen name: That was 8 years ago now. Ha, I have had my email for like 7 years!
First funeral: Yet to come.
First pets: Manzie.
First piercing: Ears, 2 weeks before my 5th Birthday.
First credit card: Yet to come. Bank Card...year 8.
First true love: If I was in love, year 9.
First musicians you remember hearing in your house: Vavaldi. Deep Purple. Led Zepplin. Jimmy Hendrix.
Lasts
Last cigarette: I don't smoke. But maybe year 10 or 9 even? Before sXe.
Last car ride: The way home from school.
Last kiss: David.
Last good cry: Saturday.
Last library book checked out: Um. I don't remember, like the last quiz. But I last looked at The Human Anatomy.
Last movie seen: Was it mallrats?
Last phone call: Mum maybe?
Last time showered: This Morning.
Last shoes worn: School shoes.
Last cd played: Thursday.
Last item bought: Cat Collar. Maybe?
Last annoyance: Having to cough and sniffle.
Last disappointment: Well, I have to work until 11 tonight.
Last time wanting to die: About 1 month ago. I am not too suicidal this month.
Last shirt worn: The one now, school shirt.
Last website visited: LJ. Journal whore.
Last word you said: Shoot and apple off my head.
Last song you sang: Coldplay: clocks.
What is in your cd player?: Thursday or Mars Volta.
What color socks are you wearing?: White.
What Color underwear are you wearing?: White with a Black mod pattern.
What's under your bed?: Nil.
What time did you wake up today?: 7:00am.
Currents
Current mood: Content.
Current music: Nick Cave and The Bad Seeds.
Current taste: I have a cold, I have been robbed of the right to taste.
Current hair: In a ponytail...emo fringe.
Current clothes: School uniform.
Current annoyance(s): Coughing.
Current desktop picture: Donnie Darko collage.
Current book(s): Grease Script.
Current color of toenails: Nil.
Current time-wasting wish: To be content with our relationship, and know whats going on with it.
Current hate: McDonalds hours.
One or the Other:
1. Black or white?: Black.
2. Boxers or briefs?: Undies.
3. Coke or Pepsi?: Coke.
4. Salt or pepper?: Salt/Pepper mix.
5. Sweet or sour?: Sweet and Sour.
6. Vanilla or chocolate?: Vanilla.
7. Short or long?: What?
8. Cheap or expensive?: Now...That's difficult. Cheap.
9. Firm or soft?: What?
10. Hot or cold?: I like winter, and the clothes. Mmm layers. You can warm up. But in summer, it's hard to cool down.
My favorite...
1. Color is: Red.
2. Song is: Just Like Heaven.
3. Scent is: Fresh Cut Grass.
4. Alcoholic beverage is: Haha.
5. Food is: Chocolate Spiders maybe? Rollups.
5 things you are wearing right now
- NO braces.
- Socks.
- Skirt.
- Blouse.
- Bra.
5 things you did so far today
- Went to school.
- Went online.
- Showered.
- Smiled.
- Listened to music.
5 things you can hear right now
- Beastie Boys.
- The oven.
- Mum.
- Harry.
- Aeroplane.
5 things you do when your bored
- Sing.
- Listen to music.
- Make clothes.
- Write poems.
- Dance.
5 people that never fail to cheer you up
- David.
- Eva.
- Robert Smith.
- Terri.
- Jana.
5 things you can't live without
- Friends.
- Transport.
- Music.
- Shows.
- Fridge.
Today was kind of alright. I was sick. Unfortunatly. I have a cold and I am not feeling to great atm.
I have to go to work at 7:30 and I am kinda pissed off by that, I really don't want to. I have like no time off this week. I either have Grease or work, and it sucks corely.
So anyway, today, Eva and I caught up and I was in a pretty good mood all the day. People who were not in too good moods, I tried to cheer up, but maybe I failed at that. Hoe well. I tried. Other than that, my lessons went fast. I cant stand HER any longer. Fake fucking fake fucker. :)...your a slut! :) Does it make you proud now that everyone knows what your like?
My English short story is well on the way. Smiles all round for that!
<3 Love you all.
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[17 Apr 2004|06:54pm] |
Blind to the answers, find yourself,
Walk for the moment, find the reason in yourself,
Theres a reason for you and I,
Take this time to find a meaning,
A reason to sit back and measure the worst six years of my life,
Waiting for your legs to close on my best friends,
Last night I saw your life flash before my eyes,
Why did I laugh so hard baby?
(you won't be back and i'm still laughing)
I never meant to hurt you (but I did)
I'm sorry that you cried so hard darling,
I'll never hurt you again,
Take this time to find your tounge,
A sorry excuse to stop your lies,
The best 30 seconds of my life,
My angel take your pills,
My angel I sold your ring,
And now I can't stop laughing,
I didn't want it this way,
I hope you're happy where you are
And i'm glad to say I put you there,
Who's the one that's laughing now,
I'm the one who's laughing now
(now theres nothing left to say I hope you're feeling my embrace, and I can't sleep)
You should have left me sleeping
You should have let me sleep....
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[08 Apr 2004|02:08pm] |
Peeling back your flesh
letting myself pour in
destroying everything meaningful
and beautiful in your life
pulling out your heart
playing with the strings
consuming all your memories
attacking your feelings
licking my fingers
and pushing them further
I cant feel your hurt
pain is just momentary
you scream as you lay there
I just flick my hair and laugh
tearing at your lungs
asphyixiating you
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| If you're bored than you're boring. |
[31 Mar 2004|08:43pm] |
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Red Hot Chili Peppers: Soul To Squeeze |
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I should update here more often.
So whats going down in my life.
Not to much to concern yourself over.
Amen.
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| My conclusion |
[09 Mar 2004|06:17pm] |
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Thrice: To Awake And Avenge The Dead |
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Never confront people who say you ignore them,
You will just end up crying, hanging up the phone.
they will give fake apolagies and you, will cry yourself to sleep.
You say you want me to talk to you more. Then you wont listen.
Because you are not in the mood. That's great.
No matter what you say, you are the one pushing me away. Stop hurting me, incase you havent noticed. I HATE IT!
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[09 Mar 2004|07:40am] |
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I should use my LJ.
Yes, that's right.
So anyway, I am awake and should be going to school in 10 or so minutes. I can't wait to get out of school. Don't get me wrong I don't mind it. But I wouldnt mind going on holidays again or at least have my assignments finished. Grrr damn you and your stupid pressure. Oh well, it's only one more year right?
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[01 Mar 2004|07:02pm] |
Not within arms length
I'd sever the stars from the sky and place them in your hands if I
thought another wish they'd see the light of day.
But you stand beyond the sun.
Beyond the reach of just a friend
maybe if I grew wings, maybe if you lost yours.
These words would flow like water if you would let them scrape your heart
Not within arms length.
A silent cry, I recive no comfort and as I colapse
we remain nothing more than friends.
As I hold my breath, a throat full of cement.
I am disgusted by repititon. I accept this curse of friendship....
your friend.... friendship
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[17 Feb 2004|09:20pm] |
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So I made a canvas for the first time.
It's 100cm x 100cm.
This is going to be fun.
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